CHAI LATTES!!!!!

Today was a good day for baby and I. We had a vente sized chai latte from Starbucks. Baby spent an hour kicking out its hyperness. I spent 10 hours kicking out my hyperness. haha.

Went to the gym and ran for 20 mins and then biked for 20 mins. Not bad!!!!! I could've done way more but my sister kept pushing me to leave.
WILL BE BACK TOMORROW!!!

Halloween was fun. I went to a friend's party and spent the entire night laughing. I was going to dress up as Optimus Prime but decided that no one would know who I was without my helmet. Definitely didn't want to spend the entire night wearing a helmet. So I went as a cupcake instead. Very easy... I put tissue paper in a cupcake and stuck it to my head.

This week should be very relaxing. I'm finally finished with my hardest course!!! So I have lots of time again to hang out with friends. Mmmmm.... I'm starving. Will go regain all the calories I burned at the gym. :)

I just "Flickr"ed

Love these pictures!!!!

morning!

Well, my plan to wake up early and study went down the drain. I was supposed to be up at 9 and get a head start in my readings.... woke up at 11.
HOWEVER! to make up for my laziness, I created a wonderful platter of fruit to feed myself and mini-me. There was originally more fruit on the plate, I just ate it before I could take the picture. I wish strawberries were in season. I LOOOVVEE strawberries. And cherries. And jack fruit. mmmmmmm.... jack fruit :)

It's another rainy day

It's another rainy day.

Is it weird that I enjoy rainy days. It makes me feel comforted... like Mother Nature understands my moods.
I'm sitting at my desk studying for my final exam this Monday. I still have to finishing editing a paper and finishing another paper.
I borrowed the "Time Travelers Wife" from the library and only have a week to read. I haven't started it yet.
I rented a Pilates video to try out at home on my new, pink yoga mat.
My hair is getting so long that it's desperately begging to be cut.
Yet, all I seem to want to do is crawl into bed and sleep away this life. I want to wake up 10 years from now and be so grateful that this part of my life is over.

I'm listening to piano solos on the radio, drinking orange juice and pretending its a nice cup of tea. I'm chewing gum because it takes my mind off the nausea I keep feeling.
The baby feels like a fish swimming inside of me.

Halloween is tomorrow and I don't really want to go out. I've been invited to a big party but partying with my friends just doesn't feel the same without Dan. Plus, I can't drink.
It feels more like Christmas. I'm excited for Christmas. I'm hoping to get started on a bunch of self-projects. I also find the snow brings a sense of quiet and peace to me.
I'm not sure what I'm going to do during my last trimester. I can't work at the pool because I'm considered more of a hazard than a lifeguard. I've never NOT worked before. What am I going to do?

H1N1

Got my H1N1 shot today. Ugh! I was dreading this day and I was right to be dreadful. So many people! I felt so uncomfortable and was pretty sure the likliehood that I'd catch H1N1 was more likely to happen there because of the massive amounts of people there. So many screaming children.
I was really lucky though. I only had to wait 45 mins in line to get a number. I was told to come back at 4:30 but I knew that if I did, I'd have to wait in line forever. Sure enough, I get there at 6 and they had only called my number 20 mins ago. I was put to the front of the line, got my shot within 15 mins and was done. HAHA! I was reading the information sheet and for pregnant women, they recommended to get the non-adjuvecated dose which would not be available till November. However! Women who were past the half-way point should not wait and get the adjuvecated shot now. I was a bit uneasy since its such a new shot and the side-effects are really known yet. I mean, look at what thalimide did. But, I trust my doctor and she said don't risk anything and get the shot.
Some kid in Toronto died within 3 days getting H1N1. So scary. Imagine having your kid here with you one day, the weekend passes normally, and then he dies of a flu. *shudder*

Good weekend

I have not talked to "him" in 1 week and 2 days! YEA!!!
I have to admit that though I miss him so much, having him out of my life is like a breath of fresh air. I don't feel suffocated and actually, feel really strong and good about myself.

This weekend, I focused on spending time with my family and catching up with all my assignments. I don't have much of a life anymore and am surprised at how well I'm doing at school. I have nothing else to do but study so I'm actually done my assignments ahead of time! I feel really good about myself. I'm still exercising a lot and eating really healthy.
Another positive about being single, I don't spend as much money!! I hardly ever go out for dinner and when I do, I don't have to pay for 2 people! :)

For one of my classes, I had to write a paper titled "Best-self". Basically, I had to get a bunch of people to write down what they thought was my best quality. I then have to reflect on the answers and describe what I am like at my best. The point of the assignment is to figure out how to keep yourself at your best as often and long as possible. I can see it being really beneficial for a lot of business students who don't really bother on self-reflection. I, however, have always been self-absorbed and have spent my entire life developing my "inner-self" and skills. None of my friends and family's answers were unexpected though 2 of them surprised me. My 2 best friends said my best quality is that I am ambitious and dedicated. I never knew that they saw that as my best quality. It was kind of weird but enlightening.

My favorite quote I've ever heard is: "The most important relationship you'll ever have in life, is the relationship you have with yourself".
I couldn't agree more. After all that's happened, I am even more determined to make sure that I'm always the best I can be and that I make myself happy. I never want to rely on another person to give me those feelings again.

no matter what happens.... school goes on

I find it weird that despite I seem to be living this horrendous nightmare that won't go away, I still have the routine of school.
School everyday. School work all day. Stress related to school never ending.
It's like the only thing that keeps me grounded and focused.

This week was sooooo busy. Thank god I now have no life and have plenty of time to do school stuff.
I had a 25 page paper, 10 page paper, 5 page paper + quiz + 1 proposal + lots of readings all due today and tomorrow. Due to my amazing time management, I finished everything yesterday.

In 2 weeks from today, I will have another 25 page paper, final exam, 20 page paper, 5 page paper + more readings to do. Lovely.